It was very unexpecting for me that I am now a LAW student, particularly at the #1 LAW school of Region 1 in the Philippines, the University of Northern Philippines. Actually, I almost gave up this dream of a lifetime because of financial predicaments, so I thought I can never enroll anymore. Good thing is, I'm luckily employed on a hospital here in Vigan City as a nurse [NOTE: I was able to graduate in BS NURSING because I was a City Scholar before, or else, I'm just a high school graduate up to date without that scholarship grant for the poor people].
Anyway, although I'm working, the meager wage of nurses in the Philippines is not really enough to support some of our best dreams. In fact, my father wants me study LAW but he can't afford the expenses. My mom, of course, is against my plan to study law because she knows that she can really never support me financially. Actually, when I was still studying NURSING, my mom go to our neighbors and relatives to wash the clothes of them just for her to hand a money for my allowance. Sometimes, she even wash a lot of clothes a day until night then just receive 66 pesos as compensation [1.2 dollar]. Then when she goes home, she will take her fare from that 66 pesos, so the net income will be 30-40 pesos a day after washing the clothes of some people. So that will be my daily allowance, if there are projects, we borrow some amounts from our neigbors and friends and that happened everyday for 4 years! I just can't believe how I survived the NURSING course, which is far way more expensive than any other courses here in the Philippines.
Back at my post graduate course [LAW], we borrowed money again with my mom from our neigbors so that I can enroll, but nobody gave me. Even some "friends" that I know "can help me" turned their back from me. I was so disappointed and I'm giving up!
It was morning of Friday, the last day of enrollment and I was rushing... but the only remedy I got was 1,500 pesos which is absolutely not enough to enroll even just one subject. I gave it up, then I came back to work [I just excused] with nothing but disappointment. At noon, my brother texted me that my father borrowed an amount from his workmate so I was so happy and was able to enroll that day [But only partial payment and I don't know where to get money to pay for my balance].
On Monday, the first day of class, I was so intimidated because almost all my classmates come to school with cars and vehicles, I was so hesistant to mingle with them considering that I can not show anything to them inspite my hardwork to study, probably. And I saw the other students at the higher level wearing with their best formal clothes bearing in mine that I can not buy those clothes, so how could I study [because it is a requirement, that's the dress code]?
I started this, and I don't want to give up as much as possible and I have to buy law books for me to learn. I really don't know how could I survive now considering I'm no longer a government scholar. But, this is my dream, hopefully someone will help... hopefully...
